‘Spicy and feminine art’, dat is wat kunstenaar LILO maakt. Zij laat zich inspireren door filosofie, psychologie, en emotionele en erotische intelligentie. Haar werk zal regelmatig te bewonderen zijn op Bedmanieren.nl. In deze reeks plaatsen we steeds één van haar gedichten en kunstwerken.
Infidelity
Am I Unfaithful
Or loyal
Because I did and I do
not want to disappoint you
Love is messy
infidelity, more so
But it is also a window
into the core of the human soul
risking to lose everything
The core of why it’s happening
I was ashamed, longing for something else,
and afraid, to share my unhappiness,
uncomfortable restlessness
I was longing to reconnect
with lost sides of myself
To escape the deadness I was feeling inside
the feeling of having autonomy over my life
I was longing to feel alive
Paradoxically
For the first time in my life
I was completely honest to me
While I was lying to you
cheating
not to find another you,
but to find another side,
a lost part of myself
That I’ve somewhere left behind
